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enchanterErrrm, so no, I didn't really just write a Yami ficlet. Nope. This is an illusion - move along, move along.
...okay, I did. Disclaimer: I haven't written Yami since December 2005, I haven't written fic since August 2006, I haven't written much of anything since February. >.> Therefore, you'll have to forgive me this. :P Got a once-over, unbetaed, written for Amanda. Because she asked, because I love her, and because it was easier than Good Omens, which I would have butchered. ♥ And no, it's not a Tatari. Gasp.
Hands [June 14th, 2007]
Touda, Tsuzuki // introspective/character study // 610 words // complete
Touda dreams in shades of gray: murky and thick like the air in his old prison. Colors were absent from his world for so long he is not sure his true self deep within still remembers them. He remembers the cold, ubiquitous darkness, futile anger, despair. Those things, though colorless, are hard to forget.
Tsuzuki's hands are white and soft and so completely alien when they reach for him, in bittersweet reality and now - dream after dream. Touda counts them still – three hundred and eleven days, and just as many nights when nightmares toss him back in time and he, now a breathless observer, relives the hell of his imprisonment.
And the thrill of his release that came just before he went insane.
Dream-eyes follow dream-hands, white as marble that feels tender, and something tells him they won't break as easily as everything around him did. This stranger's brightness blinds him, heart of stone and frozen soul. They touch – the light becomes white hot, the distance between them disappearing into the space between their joined palms.
He is saved. Again. Alien light is no better than well-known clouds of darkness gathering above his head, but it is new and fresh and, for the first time in centuries, Touda remembers the meaning of *right*.
So he sleeps lightly now, even after three hundred and eleven days of this strange new life have passed and he has mostly calmed down. He dreams old nightmares on the verge of wakefulness, always ready to answer his master's call.
His master. Not a master, imaginary Tsuzuki reminds him from behind the thinning veil of dream surrounding him. A friend. Tsuzuki is both fragile and strong, careful and unafraid – a walking contradiction with a pair of white, slender hands that have the power to change *everything*.
Touda doesn't miss freedom from duty, his own power raging in his veins – now tamed – his hair, his old self. He doesn't miss them at all. There's nothing to think back to in the dusty, blemished book of his past.
"What would you do," Tsuzuki asks him when Touda stirs awake, long blades of grass tickling the back of his neck, sunshine and Tsuzuki's warm breath on his face. "What would you do if the unthinkable ever happened, and you had to go back to your prison again?"
Touda blinks, brow creasing, air locked in his lungs lest he start to shake, lest he make a sound that would give away the sudden stroke of pain. He'd rather keep pretending it isn't there, but his eyes stray from Tsuzuki's face.
He doesn't know why the Shinigami has asked that question, now of all times. It is the first time since *that day* the subject has breached the surface of their still brittle bond.
Tsuzuki stares, apologetic already though speechless still, wide-eyed in the wake of his own words.
"Well," Touda says, as lightly as he can, heaving himself up from the ground. He turns slightly away. Tsuzuki will never see his tears.
"I'd try to break free, of course."
He knows too well the kind of silence that falls when his voice fades, filled with questions tumbling wordlessly from quivering lips behind him. Touda runs his hand down his arm, slowly, scratches at an itch that isn't there, adjusts his visor with his other hand.
"But—" hesitation swallows Tsuzuki's failed attempts at a casual tone. "Wouldn't that be impossible?"
He smiles, not entirely against himself. "Obviously, yes."
"Then how?"
His composure is intact and serving him well again by the time Touda turns, steady and sure and strong.
"Quite simply," he says. "You'd call, I'd come."
...okay, I did. Disclaimer: I haven't written Yami since December 2005, I haven't written fic since August 2006, I haven't written much of anything since February. >.> Therefore, you'll have to forgive me this. :P Got a once-over, unbetaed, written for Amanda. Because she asked, because I love her, and because it was easier than Good Omens, which I would have butchered. ♥ And no, it's not a Tatari. Gasp.
Hands [June 14th, 2007]
Touda, Tsuzuki // introspective/character study // 610 words // complete
Touda dreams in shades of gray: murky and thick like the air in his old prison. Colors were absent from his world for so long he is not sure his true self deep within still remembers them. He remembers the cold, ubiquitous darkness, futile anger, despair. Those things, though colorless, are hard to forget.
Tsuzuki's hands are white and soft and so completely alien when they reach for him, in bittersweet reality and now - dream after dream. Touda counts them still – three hundred and eleven days, and just as many nights when nightmares toss him back in time and he, now a breathless observer, relives the hell of his imprisonment.
And the thrill of his release that came just before he went insane.
Dream-eyes follow dream-hands, white as marble that feels tender, and something tells him they won't break as easily as everything around him did. This stranger's brightness blinds him, heart of stone and frozen soul. They touch – the light becomes white hot, the distance between them disappearing into the space between their joined palms.
He is saved. Again. Alien light is no better than well-known clouds of darkness gathering above his head, but it is new and fresh and, for the first time in centuries, Touda remembers the meaning of *right*.
So he sleeps lightly now, even after three hundred and eleven days of this strange new life have passed and he has mostly calmed down. He dreams old nightmares on the verge of wakefulness, always ready to answer his master's call.
His master. Not a master, imaginary Tsuzuki reminds him from behind the thinning veil of dream surrounding him. A friend. Tsuzuki is both fragile and strong, careful and unafraid – a walking contradiction with a pair of white, slender hands that have the power to change *everything*.
Touda doesn't miss freedom from duty, his own power raging in his veins – now tamed – his hair, his old self. He doesn't miss them at all. There's nothing to think back to in the dusty, blemished book of his past.
"What would you do," Tsuzuki asks him when Touda stirs awake, long blades of grass tickling the back of his neck, sunshine and Tsuzuki's warm breath on his face. "What would you do if the unthinkable ever happened, and you had to go back to your prison again?"
Touda blinks, brow creasing, air locked in his lungs lest he start to shake, lest he make a sound that would give away the sudden stroke of pain. He'd rather keep pretending it isn't there, but his eyes stray from Tsuzuki's face.
He doesn't know why the Shinigami has asked that question, now of all times. It is the first time since *that day* the subject has breached the surface of their still brittle bond.
Tsuzuki stares, apologetic already though speechless still, wide-eyed in the wake of his own words.
"Well," Touda says, as lightly as he can, heaving himself up from the ground. He turns slightly away. Tsuzuki will never see his tears.
"I'd try to break free, of course."
He knows too well the kind of silence that falls when his voice fades, filled with questions tumbling wordlessly from quivering lips behind him. Touda runs his hand down his arm, slowly, scratches at an itch that isn't there, adjusts his visor with his other hand.
"But—" hesitation swallows Tsuzuki's failed attempts at a casual tone. "Wouldn't that be impossible?"
He smiles, not entirely against himself. "Obviously, yes."
"Then how?"
His composure is intact and serving him well again by the time Touda turns, steady and sure and strong.
"Quite simply," he says. "You'd call, I'd come."
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Date: 2007-06-14 08:45 pm (UTC)Neatly written, save a typo I won't bother to mention (:P).
Sometimes it's nice to just sit and write, no matter what it's about, eh? I haven't the inspiration...and don't share much anyway. I'm glad to see you have had some of the former, and have done the latter ;).
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Date: 2007-06-14 08:53 pm (UTC)That said, thanks. :D For reading and commenting; I know you read even when you don't know the characters, which is cool, because you have a totally different perspective. A different experience, too, so I find your opinion valuable in different ways than those of the fandom-oriented people's.
:D
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Date: 2007-06-14 08:47 pm (UTC)Touda. Haaaands.
*_*
I love this. And you. And... gah. *warm!fuzzy-attack* ^____^ Thank you so much! ♥
311 ~ Hee!
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Date: 2007-06-14 08:53 pm (UTC)::g:: You're welcome. ♥
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Date: 2007-06-14 10:27 pm (UTC)Despite being short is full of feelings that makes it very good.
Plus I like the delicious mix of sadness and hope, fear and bitterness and confidence and trust in Tsuzuki.
I truly hope you'll write more of tthose!
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Date: 2007-06-15 08:02 am (UTC)Anyway, Thank you! :D
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Date: 2007-06-15 02:08 pm (UTC)For a first try it turned out really good!
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Date: 2007-06-15 03:39 pm (UTC)I'd probably have written more fic involving characters other than Watari and Tatsumi, but I got caught up in the plotverse of the abovementioned epic monster, and ended up with no time or energy for any other kind of fic... then I was contaminated with another fandom disease, then I moved on to original fiction...
Funny thing is, that because of this little ficlet, I am having vague urges to revisit Yami and see if I can do something about that hanging WiP... XD
Anyway, I'm rambling. :P
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Date: 2007-06-15 05:07 pm (UTC)I got completely captured by the Seishiro/Subaru story ('Tokyo Babylon' & 'X' by CLAMP) so I kind of abandoned YnM... not mentioning work takes me lot of time...
Good luck with finishing the WIP
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Date: 2007-06-17 08:14 pm (UTC)I moved on to Loveless from Yami at the beginning of 2006. I do believe I've already said what I had to say in that fandom, too, so we'll see what happens next.
Thanks. ;-)
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Date: 2007-06-15 09:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-06-15 03:41 pm (UTC)::g:: Thanks. Glad you enjoyed it. ♥
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Date: 2007-06-15 11:32 am (UTC)And it's absolutely perfect. *hugs*
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Date: 2007-06-15 03:42 pm (UTC)Thank you. ::glomp!:: ♥
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Date: 2007-06-17 08:17 pm (UTC)Thanks for reading, and for the comment. I'm glad you enjoyed it. ;-)